【明德網訊】昨天講到這首詩時，已經是晚上11點了。我轉發了中文版，說希望有一天我能把它翻譯成英文。結果馬上有人留言說希望我有時間時真的把它翻譯出來。
因爲太感動了，於是我真的立即著手翻譯了，花了大概一小時翻譯，一小時上圖寫後面的註解等等。忙到淩晨1點，終於把它發表出來了。
同時，我還把它發給一個經常寫詩西人朋友，請他看看有無可以提高、需要修改的地方（我是個很虛心的人！），結果今早他回信說，真要改的話，可以做幾個小小的修改。但這首詩是一顆悲傷的心的自然流露，真摯感人，因此無需再修飾了！
(Jennifer’s note: This is a poem by Professor Ai Xiaoming, based on a widely circulated photo of a father waiting for his daughter who died in the flood on July 20 at the Shakou Subway Station in Zhengzhou City, Henan Province in China, with a sign written on a paper board that says “Niu Niu, dad still wants to bike you home.” In Henan province, little girls are often called Niu Niu. Chinese people believe that after people die, their souls/spirits will return to pay a last visit to his/her family members before he/she goes into the next reincarnation. People will prepare food from the dead ones, but will prevent themselves from being seen by the dead, so that the spirits/souls can leave with a carefree heart.)
（曾錚注：本詩爲廣州中山大學退休教授艾曉明爲在鄭州地鐵淹水事件中失去女兒的這位「雨衣爸爸」所寫，我將它翻譯成了英文。中文原文在英文下面。）
By Ai Xiaoming, translated from Chinese by Jennifer Zeng
From now on, everybody needs to remember your name
From now on, every drop of rain is a tear
From now on, dad will be waiting for you here every day
From Spring to Summer, from tonight until his hair turns grey
Niu Niu, were you a schoolgirl?
Were you quite independent, did you laugh a lot?
Did you love singing best, or drawing?
Were you wearing a school uniform, or a flowery skirt?
Dad biked here from afar
Dad remembers today is the 7th day [since you left]
On the 7th day, souls [of the dead] return home
Dad is afraid that you’ll be hungry on the way
Dad puts his own meal box in the basket
While Nui Nui’s is hung on the handlebar
Niu Niu’s meal box is so full
And firmly in place
Have a good meal and go on to your next life with a full stomach
Don’t ever look back
Don’t you try to look for dad
Don’t worry that dad will leave
You’ll only be as light as a feather without seeing your dad
Your panic, despair, and suffocation
Leave them all behind
Let dad carry the burden as heavy as a mountain
Oh that man sits there
How long does he plan to sit?
One half of a cardboard box is under him
Written on the other piece is a reunion that cannot be ever missed
I try to finish the sentence
But I just can’t
How strong, or how soft we need to be
To be able to read the words from this dad’s heart
“Niu Niu, Dad Still Wants to
Bike You Home.”
I wish a statue will be built at the entrance of the subway
To carve this nameless father
Don’t let him stand tall like that man who blasted the bunker*
Don’t carve any words from the officials on the base
Just like this, with his head hanging low
A man in a thin waterproof cape
Bent and poor, loyal and sorrowful, speechless
As plain and fragile as the cardboard box on the ground
Like that old-fashioned bike, built before electric motors
Like that bamboo pole that holds up the cardboard sign
Using all its strength to hold up the words
Niu Niu, have you seen the writing of your dad?
I know they call all the little girls Niu Niu in Henan
I know that because one Niu Niu was abandoned
She ended up becoming an Olympic legend for another country **
But I also know that many Niu Niu have such a father
He can’t afford flowers
But he brings his Niu Niu food
Like the mourners who place their flowers there
He puts himself on the ground
As he has to wait for you to come get your meal
He can’t boast like a professor of Peking University
“When dad gets rich, he will buy you an American residency.”
He sits there lonely
Like a stone left behind after the flood
They can cover the view of flowers with a shield***
But how can they block the view of Niu Niu’s Dad?
He sits there
As sad as the air, connecting life and death
From now on, whenever I think of Zhengzhou, I will think of this father
From now on, I can never forget that the subway has taken Niu Niu away
From now on, every rainfall is a farewell
From now on, we’ll witness the waiting of an angel here
From Spring to Summer, from tonight, until his hair turns grey
***********
*“That man who blasted the bunker”: Refers to Dong Cunrui, a CCP soldier who was portrayed as hero for blasting himself together with the enemy’s bunker during the Chinese Civil War.
** “She ended up becoming an Olympics legend for another country”: Refers to Canada’s Maggie MacNeil, who was abandoned by her biological parents in China as a baby, and captured Canada’s first gold medal at the 2020 Tokyo Olympics on July 26,
*** “You can cover the view of flowers with a shield”: The CCP authorities used a shield to block the view of the flowers at the subway station on July 27, when the public mourned the dead in the July 20 flood in Zhengzhou.
艾晓明：有个叫妞妞的孩子要回家
从此天下人都要记住你的名字
从此每一滴雨水都是泪珠
从此爸爸每天都在这里等你
从春到夏 从今夜到白头
妞妞是个上学的女孩吗
她很独立很爱笑吗
她喜欢唱歌还是爱画画
她穿着校服还是花裙子呢
爸爸骑车从很远的地方过来
爸爸记得今天是头七
第七天的魂魄要回家
爸爸怕你在路上就饿了啊
爸爸自己的饭盒落在车筐
妞妞的饭盒挂在车把手
妞妞的饭盒这么饱满
这么稳稳当当地挂着
你吃饱啊 饱饱地走向你的下一生
不要回头再看
你不要认出爸爸
不要担心爸爸会离开
你不见爸爸才能身轻如燕
你把惊恐 绝望和窒息
全都留下来吧
让爸爸扛起这如山的沉重
那个人坐在那里
他打算坐多久呢？
快递纸箱的一面垫在他身下
另一面写着再也不能错过的重逢
我试图念完这句话
但怎么也念不下去
我们要有多坚强 或者多柔软
才能念出这父亲的心语
妞妞 爸爸还想
接你回家
我愿地铁入口从此有一座雕像
刻下这位无名的父亲
不要高高挺立 像个炸碉堡的
不要底座 刻上什么官方说辞
就这样 低垂着头
蒙着雨衣的男子
卑微 执拗 沉痛 无语
像地面的纸板那样朴素 脆弱
像过时已久 比电动车更老的自行车
像那根撑着纸板的竹竿
力尽一己之力 支撑着
妞妞 你看见爸爸写的字了吗
我知道河南老家话管女孩叫小妞
我知道有的妞妞不受待见
成就了异国奥运的传奇
但我还知道有很多妞妞有这样的父亲啊
他买不起一束鲜花
但他给妞妞带饭了
他像祭奠者们摆放鲜花一样
把自己放在地上
要等妞妞过来拿饭啊
他说不起北大教授的豪言壮语
爸爸有钱了 给你买个美国户口
他孤独地坐在那里
像洪流肆虐后留下的一块石头
你们用挡板遮住鲜花的景象
但怎么遮挡得了妞妞的爸爸呢
他坐在那里
哀伤如空气 连通生死
从此想起郑州就会想起这个父亲
从此再也忘不了地铁带走了妞妞
从此大雨纷飞都是送别
从此在这里见证天使的等候
从春到夏 从今夜到白头
2021年7月26日夜深
中文版轉載自https://www.chinesepen.org/blog/archives/159792
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